Category: Inner Ramblings
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Bring balance back to the force
Many years ago I did a Reiki Practitioner course and learnt about the four pillars; Physical, emotional, spiritual , mental. If I recall, Karen called them aspects. But I called them pillars because if one cracked, the other 3 would fall down too. I was thinking a lot about this as we head into a…
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Another Year Gone… 2022
Today is 31 December 2022. Every year at around this time I would write a memoirs from the future post where I reflected on each month of the year and would select some photo’s. This year, I feel like I spent a lot of time in my head as I navigated trauma exposure therapy, came…
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Don’t just survive… thrive – the holidays theme
Its been quite some time since I posted last; time really flies when you are wondering through space and time with tunnel vision. The holiday survival guide is a theme that is all over the interwebs over this time of the year. The holidays aren’t stressful for me anymore. I made a decision many years…
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Let the music move you
One thing that happened when I was diagnosed with cancer was that I disconnected with my body. This was not conscious, but I did feel like my body had thrown me the finger. Little did I know that the disconnection was my automated trauma response; more on that another time. What I also managed to…
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As the mother of a son
I am not really sure of how to start this, or where it will lead, but lets see where it goes. The feminist that has been deep within has surfaced over the last few months where I have felt the strong desires to just charge forth with that so called “Girl Power” vibe. As the…
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The right to choose
In 2012 I wrote a blog post about a woman’s right to choose. I noted how it is a touchy subject for many. Some people don’t care, some people get so irate you would swear they were being forced to end a pregnancy themselves. There is so much judgment passed by those who judge with…
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Setting Myself Free
Its been a while since I have written about cancer. I had a few posts on my old site, but as I mentioned, it was so clinical that it was more information on the process of staging and treatment; I didn’t write much about how it changed me at my core. How it made me…
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Zig-zagging healing
Healing is not a linear process. Healing is like a zig-zagging maze. Sometimes when you think you have reached the end, you are just in place where you turn left or right. I am listening to Ella Fitzgerald as I type this and the song playing made me laugh; it’s resonating so deeply right now.…
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There was only one
I have been watching a series on Netflix called “Glitch”. This post has zero to do with people coming back to life and crawling out of graves, but something resonated so deeply and that was when Sarah didn’t quite bond with her new baby. Granted, she was actually a dead person come back to life,…
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Choose your stress
Over the past few weeks I have been in a state of flux. Some days are up and some are down. When I told my therapist, that since the trauma exposure therapy, I feel like my tolerance to stress has been reduced to losing my shit just when an email hits my inbox and I…
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The pen with magic powers
I had long forgotten the power of the pen. Once an avid blogger, I knew that there was something so incredibly cathartic about putting words onto paper or a screen. Out of the mind and into the open. While I love that I can digitise my thoughts (by typing them here), there is something special…
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Thoughts by Kerri-Ann
September 2012 was a day that sent a shock through my whole body. That was the day the earth lost one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my life; she was only 34. I remember driving home from San Lameer and the weather was wild; raining and windy. Like the earth…
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No direct line to the sky
In my first post I mentioned how so much of what I had written on my old blog site didn’t really resonate. A case in point was my view on religion. I wrote a post in 2012 about how I didn’t really get the point of religion. In 2014, I wrote a similar post about…
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Path to Authenticity
In my first post, I wrote about my desire to start fresh, with a new site. So much from my old blog site didn’t resonate anymore. Not everything, but I think as person I have changed so much. Naturally. I started my last blog in 2011. It was the year I turned 30. I was…
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The Social Detox
For the first time since sometime in 2007; I deactivated my Facebook account. Its been exactly a week since I deactivated the account and I am surprisingly still alive. I thought giving up smoking was hard, but as I struggle to give up sugar, I realised sugar addiction is stronger… but social media; that is…
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